Last night I watched tremendously helpful videos on YouTube. I feel very inspired by those artists I saw there. They all are living a dream life they imagined and doing everyday, or at least most of the time, what they love to do.
I love this idea of immersing myself into doing something that I actually love doing and be completely into it. Be in the flow state where one completely loses the track o time.
I had such experiences too, particularly I remember, while doing the coding. It had my flow state. I dropped it because it also used to frustrate me a lot, which I don’t want.
An activity should give a sense of relief not leave with the sense of frustration. Also at the end of the day when I stop, oftentimes reluctantly as I had not reached a solution, I used to feel like I wasted my day. I used to blame myself the instead of doing something productive, something worthwhile, I wasted the entire day. And that was not a good feeling to have.
In fact writing this and analysing what was used to be, I am realising now why I don’t want to choose coding.
But fortunately I have many other activities that gave me the sense of relief and the flow state even after spending hours on them.
And writing is one of them.
So, I choose writing and let’s see how far we go. I love writing and I do writing a lot. So I decided to do more of it and start a website blog.
Thanks for all those tremendously helpful creators on YouTube. And of course I cannot dismiss the advise, the clarity I received from AI. I had log discussion with AI about how should I begin, what should be done, where should I post and, most importantly, can this hobby of mine support me financially if I want to do this only.
And it said “YES” That is all I wanted to hear, rest I can do by myself.
I didn’t intend to have this letter written but it just wrote by itself. That is precisely the “FEELING” the “FLOW” I was seeking. I am so glad I found it.
It took a good amount of time of my life but I am happy I found it. Now I can live, enjoying it, living it, immersing into it.
Thank You.
-Niharika Rahi
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